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this post is different from the one i thought i was going to write.

over the last few days, i have been very tired. i've felt a little off, a little blah. the warmness and twinges in my uterus seemed to be turning into more like period cramps.

last night, as i laid in bed, i started writing out a post for today in my head, how i feared that my hope was waning, that these twinges and weird feelings in my abdomen were my body trying to have a period, but progesterone was keeping it from coming.

and then, the dog got me out of bed early. against all better reason, when i went to the bathroom, i decided to check out my first morning urine on a pee stick.

and whaddaya know. two lines appeared.

i have NEVER seen 2 lines. not on a HCG test, nor an LH test. never. and this was not a "hold it up to the light at a certain angle squinting" sort of 2 lines.

this was

TWO DARK INSTANT LINES!!!!!!!!!

so what did i do? i called the nurse who said she is very surprised i got a BFP this early and she'll let me come in on friday for a beta.

and then i went and bought the mother of all pregnancy tests, the DIGITAL.

and i saw the most beautiful sight i've ever seen....

(the monkey is something mr and i hide for each other around the house. it was the first valentine's gift he ever gave me. this monkey is waiting at mr.'s desk for when he gets home :)

now, i know it is early, and i still need to have a bloodtest to confirm and all that, but for today, i am feeling good, and full of hope.