Wednesday, February 10, 2010


did i say in my last post that i was surprisingly calm about this whole pregnancy thing?!?

because now i'm freaking out again. mr. and i had a conversation about how there is probably nothing wrong, and there is no reason to think there is since there is no spotting/cramping/etc, but after everything we've been through, we are both nervous that the next appointment will bring more bad news, since that's what we are used to.

i'm trying to stay positive. i'm still slightly nauseous often and have trouble sleeping at night. also, without warning i get HUNGRY. and i'm talking, if i don't get food immediately i'm going to throw up, hungry. even though i've lost about 10 pounds, my belly is totally growing! it's hard to believe since the babies are only about an inch big at this point, but i look pregnant. which is a problem, since i'm still trying to hide it! i've been wearing my pants unbuttoned with a b-band, or low rise pants that button below my belly, or even yoga pants, all coupled with bigger tops, sweaters and hoodies. next week is school vacation, and an appointment with the OB, so maybe after that i will have to let the cat out of the bag- if i hear 2 perfect heartbeats on the doppler, we'll see. i've read that with twins you measure about the same as a singleton pregnancy 6-8 weeks ahead of you, so that makes me feel a little better, but it feels a little odd to look so pregnant and not even be out of the first trimester. if i'm this big now, i can't imagine how big i will be in the end. i'm only 5'2". i might just topple over with baby at some point.

only a few more weeks until we see the babies on u/s again. and we get out of this trimester and feel a little better about the chances of actually holding 2 healthy babies in the end of all of this. i'm excited that at this u/s they will actually look like babies, and not just white blobs inside a black blob.


sunflowerchilde said...

Yeah, the first ultrasound where they start to have the shape of mini-babies is really cool. Wait until the NT scan - that will blow your mind.

I know what you mean about freaking out even when there's no reason to. For me, it always seems worse the closer I get to the next doctor visit. Thank goodness my next one is today!

I'm so happy for you!! After all you went through, you deserve this so much.

Lara (NoodleGirl) said...

I was EXACTLY where you are now in the past few days. No reason to think anything was wrong except for my personal history of dead babies. My symptoms had lessened alot over the past week, less nausea, lots of energy. Though, like you, the hunger was definitely still there.

And today, at 10 weeks, everything looked great. I know it's so hard, but try to trust your body to let you know if something is wrong and otherwise, try and enjoy your baby.

babyinterrupted said...

Thanks so much for the supportive comment. :) I'm so glad you're doing well, even though the nervousness isn't subsiding much.

One Who Understands said...

I am so happy for you. I think the freak out thing is so normal after IF. We all do it. Good luck with these little ones!!

Wishing 4 One said...

Wow, how exciting. But i totally get the freaking out, if I ever make it to being and staying pregnant I will so be freaking out the entire time I bet. Take it easy and know this time everything is going to be perfect my friend. xoxo