Friday, April 10, 2009

good news and bad news...

i had another follicle check this morning.  nothing.  we are officially cancelled and preparing for IVF.  i'm over it, it's fine.  i was mentally prepared for the IVF cycle anyway, so i'm not even sad, especially since with 0% morphology the IUI wouldn't have worked anyway and i just would have been tormented with an inkling of hope for 2 weeks only to have it all come crashing down again.

on a better note, yesterday the weather here was beautiful.  mr.m called me after his lunch break in a great mood after having been outside.  he asked me to come into the city to meet him for dinner. (we live in the suburbs, he works in the city) i used to go in all the time and meet him after work and we haven't done it for a while.  so i got all cute and loaded up my new jcrew whale purse and headed in for our spontaneous date.  we walked around the city and went to a yummy seafood place that is a little higher end, but we had a gift certificate. we had some king crab legs and i had the yummiest halibut ever!  i even had a glass of wine with dinner:)  then we walked over to an ethnic area of the city for a cannoli, some decaf and some people watching out the open air windows.  it was a great night.  the city was bustling and happy, as everyone was enjoying the first really nice day.  we laughed and talked and for a night were just a happy couple out on the town and not sad infertile people.  we didn't even once talk about getting pregnant or babies or anything.  we were just us for the night, just happy and in love and enjoying life together with no worries.

8 comments:

Hillary said...

Sorry about the cycle cancellation!!

What a lovely night! I'm so glad you ahd your husband had some spontaneous couple time together!!

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Beautiful Mess said...

Awww how sweet! I'm sorry about your cancellation, but how awesome that you and Mr. M got to spend some time together! Have a GREAT weekend!

sunflowerchilde said...

I'm so sorry that the cycle was cancelled, but it's great that you've already made your plans to move ahead with IVF. And your night out on the town sounded really nice - I need to do something like that with my husband, we sure could use it!

Happy Easter (if you celebrate it), and have a great weekend!

Hopeful said...

Your post broke my heart and gave me inspiration all at the same time. I'm so, so, sorry about the follices being stubborn and the cancelled cycle. But, it does have to feel good knowing that you are really on a path that has very great chances of working for you:)

I love it that you guys went on a date and put IF behind you. I have such a hard time doing that and it's so important for a marriage to be able to do that. To still be 'you' and not just 'you and infertility'.

Hang in there, hon.

Baby Steps said...

That stinks about your follicles, but I hear ya on the 2ww. For some reason, even when there's absolutely no hope, there's still an inkling of hope! Why do we do that to ourselves? GO IVF!

I loved hearing about your spontaneous date. You deserved a good night out. And isn't it awesome when you can be together without IF coming up? Apparently life can still be enjoyable sometimes, despite the battle with infertility.

My word verification is "Falik". Apparently I'm immature because it made me chuckle. :)

Missy said...

What a great night!

S said...

Sorry about your cancellation. Sounds like you have a positive attitude about moving forward, though.

So glad that you and your hubby had a nice evening together, free of talk about TTC and IF! Goodness knows how much stress all this can put on our relationships. . .

Betty Rubble said...

I'm sorry your cycle was cancelled :( What a great evening though! Sounds like you had a great time!

Good luck w/your upcoming IVF