as much as i didn't want to take a break this month, it's actually okay. i don't think i realized how much i was affected by all the hormones and stuff. i actually feel normal! on the drugs, i was exhausted and irritated and b!tchy. it's been nice to be able to go out for drinks with friends and get things accomplished around the house. and be pleasant to my husband.
mr.m is CONVINCED we can get pregnant on our own. (and if i was cool i could link to an older post about that, but i still can't figure out how to do that...damn) he has me peeing on OPK's and doing the deed every other day. i am playing along, even though i know there is no way we will get pregnant on our own. he actually falls for all those stories everyone tells him about a "friend they know". whatever, i am actually in a good mood, so i'm enjoying all the se.x. i am also hoping aunt flo will show up right on time so we can get moving on this thaw cycle.
speaking of which, remember way back when, when i used to be all hopeful and optimistic? (again, sorry i can't link) well, i'm bringing hopeful back. (sing it like justin) last cycle i tried to remain neutral, and i did. and it didn't help at all. the negative hit me harder than any other try. so this time, i'm making it like i'm going to the superbowl! i'm excited and i'm going to stay that way. i'm surrounding myself with positive optimism.
i may fall on my face in the end, but i know i'll have you girls to pick me back up.