Friday, March 20, 2009

counting down the days

my blood test is tuesday.  which seems so close, yet so far away. 
i am excited that tuesday is just around the corner, but at the same time i feel a little uneasy about it, because if the result is negative, there is no more wondering- it's just over.  i kind of like the wondering, because it is hopeful and happy to wonder about something that may be.  it is sad and scary to know it may not be.

i feel like i am prepared either way.  i know this might not work.  i know it's only our first IUI, and there can be a few more tries before i get REALLY scared. 

but i am still trying to be cautiously optimistic.  i am visualizing a little embryo settling in and growing happily.  i am treating my body well and trying to stay calm and rested.

and i will just keep on waiting and wondering until tuesday.

just a little side note: some people have been commenting that their doc's don't do blood tests.  i have been FORBIDDEN by my doctor from peeing on a stick.  since i triggered with Ovidrel, which is HCG, i will get a positive on a pee stick, since the hcg is in my system, but that will not mean i am pregnant. that's why they do a blood test 14 days after the trigger.


sunflowerchilde said...

I'll be anxiously awaiting your update on Tuesday.

To answer your question, I didn't have any side effects on Clomid the last time I took it, but I also took it before bed to try to avoid them.

I'm only going to be taking the progesterone at bedtime, too, so I'm hoping that will help with the unwanted wetness during the day.

Well, good luck! Sounds like you're not feel TOO anxious about the 2ww - that's great! Have a good weekend!

Liv said...

Hey I'll be thinking about ya on Tuesday. Coincidently that's my beta test day too!

Hang in there these last few days, I'm wishing the best for you.

Tiffanie said...

good luck on tuesday:)

hmmm, i think my dr has such little faith that this will work that he didn't even tell me to come back for a beta. whatev. i guess i'll wait it out?

MC said...

I'm so jealous that your md is giving you a blood test! I don't get a blood test unless I get a bfp.

Well, I hope that this is it for you! It's got to be a good thing, both of us having our IUI on the 10th!

(ICLW & returning your comment!)

Lisa said...

Best of luck to you on Tues!!

ICLW : )

cady said...

i'm thinking about you! my blood test is thursday, so i know what you're going through.


Jennifer said...

Returning your ICLW comment :)

GOOD LUCK on Tuesday! I hope you get really great news.