i am excited that tuesday is just around the corner, but at the same time i feel a little uneasy about it, because if the result is negative, there is no more wondering- it's just over. i kind of like the wondering, because it is hopeful and happy to wonder about something that may be. it is sad and scary to know it may not be.
i feel like i am prepared either way. i know this might not work. i know it's only our first IUI, and there can be a few more tries before i get REALLY scared.
but i am still trying to be cautiously optimistic. i am visualizing a little embryo settling in and growing happily. i am treating my body well and trying to stay calm and rested.
and i will just keep on waiting and wondering until tuesday.
just a little side note: some people have been commenting that their doc's don't do blood tests. i have been FORBIDDEN by my doctor from peeing on a stick. since i triggered with Ovidrel, which is HCG, i will get a positive on a pee stick, since the hcg is in my system, but that will not mean i am pregnant. that's why they do a blood test 14 days after the trigger.