putting it out there

lately i have been feeling unusually optimistic. 

 maybe it's the promise of spring in the air, or my upcoming birthday excitement, i don't know. 

often i reign in my positive and hopeful feelings, trying to protect myself from the possible fall. 

you know, the higher you are, the harder you fall kind of thing.

but lately, i really can imagine a tiny little baby growing inside of me.  i can picture it sleeping next to my bed, 

nursing it, 

tiny fingers,

tiny sounds. 

i am sending my positive baby vibes out into the universe, letting it know that 

i AM ready. 

maybe i haven't been on this rollercoaster long enough to be bitter and broken, 

maybe my hope will be shattered again in the end, 

but today, i'm putting it out there.  

just like oprah says to do...

i'm visualizing, hoping, 

surrounding myself in positive energy

and waiting for that baby to be mine.