so now, i have choices.
i can continue with a Clomid/Ovidrel/IUI cycle (most likely adding in Metformin for the PCOS)
i can do an IUI cycle with injectables
i can skip ahead to IVF
my insurance will cover any of these options.
i'm not sure what to do. i feel blessed to have all these options, but i'm not sure i'm ready to dive in to IVF. it seems like a lot more of a process than IUI's, and a lot more time- wise, physically and emotionally. i'm also not sure about doing injectables. i'm okay with having to shoot myself up, but i'm worried i will overstim and have to cancel the cycle. i also realize this will increase our chance of multiples.
here are my thoughts on multiples.
i am fine with the idea of taking care of more than one baby, i nannied for infant twins 60 hours a week (from 3 weeks until they were 2), and although i know it's not the same as being their parent, i feel prepared. i also have a degree in early childhood and was an infant teacher for a few years. the "what to do with babies" part of motherhood is a non-issue for me. i currently have (6) 2 and 3 year olds in my care daily.
however, i worry that my small frame (i'm 5'1") cannot support the growth of multiple babies in a healthy way. i also know that my husband would prefer not to have multiples. we are both short people and he worries that having multiples will mean that the children will be physically smaller. starting with our already "small" genes, he worries they will get picked on (like he did). he also has a brother with identical twins. during their pregnancy, they had many complications and almost lost the babies. the mom was in the hospital on bed rest from 16 weeks until she delivered at 29 weeks. i think he has a fear of having to go through this with our family.
at the same time, i want a baby. and i'm willing to do whatever it takes to increase my chance of reaching this goal. and if it's going to be this difficult and i want 3-4 children eventually, what's the harm in cooking up a few at once?
i'm interested in hearing your thoughts on what you think i should do next. i know many of you have gone through some of these other steps and may have good insight based on your experiences. please comment and share your opinions and reasoning.